Happy Thanksgiving?

So what's the point of it all? Someone asked me the other day what the point of Thanksgiving was/is? Honestly I couldn't think of anything. Now that I sit alone in my apartment on Thanksgiving I realize what this day is all about; family. I however have been blessed with an amazing family and a horrible financial situation. I have been told by everyone that I should go down and visit the family but nobody realizes that I live in a constant state of poverty. I can afford to eat now and yet I find that I don't want to. Except on Thanksgiving, I am hungry for family. I was going to head to my sisters house but I woke up to a text which seemed as if she was apologizing for a bad day ahead of time. She told me in her text that her older brother was on drugs and that she was sorry for anything he said or did to me, That was an instant nope.

Well here is my life as I know it now, I am alone most days just waiting for something to happen. On my better days I get to spend my time with a gorgeous girl who I have felt an instant connection with since the moment I saw her. Even if it sounds cliche I believe it was love at first sight.

Ughhh...

Ok so it has been a busy few days and although I have got a lot of things done I seem to keep forgetting to do the important things first like my homework and payment of bills. Ok so I am starting to feel as if I am slipping into an odd state in my life because I seem to be lacking ambition. As of today this is my plan, I have to go to work soon but when I get off tonight I plan on getting home and getting my shit together. I must start a daily routine of productivity and accomplish as much as possible on a daily basis because who knows how long I have on this planet. I feel like most of my life I have always been just o.k. at things but never phenomenal. I don't know if its to late to be a phenom but I definitely feel like its time to be something special. Not to say I'm not special in that way that we are all special, but I mean I want people to know who I am and say, "I wonder what he is going to do next?". Well first I have to do something!

And that something is to change my life's pattern.

Essentially here is my plan to success.

1-Every day work out for at least 1 hour. Preferably in the morning in order to achieve a better energy flow for the day.

2- Utilizes a calendar. I have to become super organized and be on top of all homework assignments, appointments, and work days.

3- Take time to enjoy the small things with the people who matter most in your life; e.g. Jessica, Jacques, Chloe...etc...

4- Plan for your future. Always have something to look forward to in order to motivate yourself.

Bad Pork

I was dumb enough to eat some carnitas nachos last night and let me just say this one seemed like a good idea at the time. Later as I was puking it up it did not seem so great!

The Beginning

The purpose of this blog is to help me clear my mind. I do not care who reads this because just like in reality, I am an open book. I plan on this being a lifelong blog which is starting today. I must change how I have been living in a life of stability. I fear I feel myself becoming comfortable again. I must never be comfortable because I would rather push myself to be a better man. The end result of this blog will hopefully be a guide to the life I lived.